... WAITING ...
I have a big question mark in my head for the past 2.5 years.
I have it always...
Sometimes it appears in my dreams
Not only once... but several times..
Yes, it's quiet annoying, but I can't do anything about it...
I don't have the guts to bring the question up to this real world
I let it stays in my mind, in my brain, and in my heart
Let it just be a question for myself...
until it becomes a big mistery in my life...
Three days ago...
I decided to bring the question up to this unpredictable world
Let it be born
In the middle of spring time...
I feel relieved
I feel free
... from the heavy confrontation that has been struggling in my mind
Now I don't care..
I'm just gonna wait...
Wait for what is gonna come next
Another questions appear
What does the implication of my action?
How can I know that everything is going to be better?
What if it's just gonna make everything worst?
...
Well.. I don't know...
What I know for sure is...
.. that I feel relieved ...
Now, every morning I wake up
and wonder...
would I get the answer today?
... or ...
perhaps... NEVER ?
...I have no clue...